“All of These Must Go.”

She was tall and had the longest, thinnest legs I’ve ever seen. She was like a giraffe, a giraffe with a pixie cut, anyway. Her delicate fingers held her cell phone as she snapped photos. She walked in whispers, in waves. And then in one fell swoop, she saw my books.

Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay

“Oh,” she said. I could smell the distaste as the word dropped from her lips and hung there. “These, all of these must go,” she said, and one of her arms gestured, as if I could use a magic wand to POOF them away.

Giraffe lady’s business card was shiny, waxy, and I folded it over and over upon itself. Her leopard-print kitten heels clicked along our scuffed up wood floors. They sneered at my New Balance tennis shoes from Costco.

I couldn’t keep up with her. She wanted our life put into boxes, compartmentalized, hidden, camouflaged. Like only the house existed, not the people inside of it. No evidence. Clear the crime scene, no human beings have deigned to breathe within the confines of these walls! No children or adults have sullied this place, look how pristine it is!

Giraffe lady emailed me a to-do list of eleventy billion things that needed attention before proceeding.

I heaved myself up and began. What else was there to do?

I am Running into a New Year (by me, not Lucille Clifton)

The KC Wheel is not to be missed!
  1. In 2023, I conquered 7 classes (21 credits) in my master’s program at Pitt State. I was deathly afraid of returning to school after a hiatus of (ahem, cough, throat clearing) 23 years. As it turns out, a virtual program kicks your ass because you have to essentially teach yourself. It’s all about focus, self discipline, and persistence.
  2. I’m grateful to my professors for showing me grace so I could cobble together a trip to Atlanta in February 2023 to donate a kidney. Donating my kidney was something I felt compelled to do for several reasons. There’s nothing better than giving the gift of life.
  3. This sign from my run today:
Seen on my run today. Might be my new mantra.

There are hills everywhere. I climb them. Sometimes I get stuck. Quite a few hills are looming in the distance, and several prevent me from seeing all that lies ahead. I just know I need to keep climbing.

4. The next hill for me is student teaching. I’m lucky to be matched with a fabulous fourth grade teacher. Lots of my in-person learning begins tomorrow, and I’m equal parts excited and nervous.

5. Moving my body calms my anxious brain. Today I left the house with some trash bags and picked up litter along Lackman Road. Keeping busy in lots of little ways also quiets the voices in my head.

6. Meet Flounder, our newest family member:

Flounder prefers our humble abode to the Petsmart he was residing in.

7. Saturday Scrabble. I lost, but whatever. I don’t do resolutions, but I will do more Scrabble.

8. Sometimes you need ice cream for dinner. Trust me on this one. It’s best when it involves both peanut butter and chocolate.

9. Everything in my feed right now revolves around (a) various ways to remove excess facial hair, (b) whole-body deodorant (see also: is it just me, or is this mainly marketed to women and WHY?!), and (c) pelvic floor issues. Isn’t it fun being a woman?

10. Roller skating is life.

11. Writing 11 things is a little idea I love via Jena Schwartz.

Are you there, God? It’s me, Erin.

I have no idea what I’m doing. Is this the title, or the actual text here?

Oh look, a dog. Not just any dog, MY DOG! Meet Loki. We adopted her from KC Pet Project in 2021 (yes, she’s a COVID dog). She’s a 2 1/2 year-old German Shepherd mix with three legs and entirely too much energy. #adoptdontshop

Picture of a black and tan German Shepherd mix lying on the floor and smiling. She is wearing a blue KC Royals bandana around her neck.
Must love dogs.

Soon this blog will have real content related to a class I’m taking at Pitt State. I’m in grad school there working on my master’s in elementary education. This is the first time I’ve been a student since waaaaaaay back in 2000.

via GIPHY

Stay tuned for more fascinating content!